An Honest Prayer During the Night

God why do you leave me with things I cannot fix? Why do I stand here alone? Why are my nights filled with doubt and my days filled with struggle? God why am I stuck in a job I do not enjoy? God why can’t I do all the things I say? Why did you … Continue reading

That Constant Struggle

There is struggle in the waiting, in the watching, In the wondering of when You will come Hurtling over the horizon to meet me. In the air there is a feeling Of noticed anticipation; Or, perhaps, that is just the air in my lungs, Coming out in worried gasps, Revealing my tainted perception. But whatever … Continue reading

Journal Entry

New entries written down in old journals Just to prove that my life is real And not just made up of disconnected moments. That jumbled feeling you get when you helplessly Lift your arms to the sky and will yourself To be lifted up above yourself, to be made new. That is what I want. … Continue reading


Don’t be me, I can’t do anything right. Don’t be me, I can’t win the fight. I go up on stages to make my name And come down realizing I can’t win the game No matter how hard I try, and I’ve tried my best But I just can’t seem to pass this test Of … Continue reading

The Sports and I

College football season us upon us! The lights, crowds, and high intensity action are here to stay! I like football, baseball, soccer, wrestling, golf, and to a lesser extent basketball. It is safe to say that I enjoy watching and playing sports but the beginning of college football season has me worried. One reason for … Continue reading