An Honest Prayer During the Night
God why do you leave me with things I cannot fix?
Why do I stand here alone?
Why are my nights filled with doubt and my days filled with struggle?
God why am I stuck in a job I do not enjoy?
God why can’t I do all the things I say?
Why did you become death for me?
Why did you die for this hypocrite?
Your Word is sharper than a double edged sword and it is piercing my soul!
God why do I sometimes feel so alone?
Why do I struggle? Why do I ache? Why do You allow me to question You?
I don’t deserve Your love, can’t you see that?
But I need you God. I can’t live without you and God you know I have tried.
God Your love is bigger than the universe and Your hands hold me.
Nothing can take me out of them!
God I hold on to Your promises through the dark nights!
I bask in your blessings during the time of doubt!
The testing comes and I stand my ground!
I sin and come back to You to repent and learn!
God Your murdered Son picks my head up
And I don’t deserve it, none of us do
But You lifted us up anyway!
You saved me from my sin, while I was still your enemy!
I hated You and You could not help but love me!
God take me and mold me.
Glory to God! The Father, The Son, The Holy Ghost!
Glory to a Triune God, the most glorious!
To God be the glory for saving this wretched sinner!
